A Love Poem for Her

I remember the first time,
First night we hung out.
You captured my heart,
From that moment on.
Your amazing beauty,
That perfect smile.
That's when I wanted to know,
Everything about you.

I remember the first time
The first kiss we shared.
It gave me this feeling,
I wanted to devour.
It lingered upon my lips
And I wanted it to last forever.
That's when I knew,
I was truly in love with you.

I remember the first time,
First night we spent cuddling.
You held me close
And I never wanted to move.
Your touch meant so much,
It melted my heart.
And that's when I knew
I wanted to spend forever with you.

You have a hold of my heart,
Got the key that turns it on.
Not being with you,
Is killing me with time.
I've been ready to
Give you all of me.
I don't want to be afraid
Because I know now
That you're the girl
I want to spend forever with.

Will you let me love you
Always and forever?

A Brother's Battle

It’s not giving up,
When life gets too tough.
It’s staying strong,
Even after everything gets rough.

It’s that smile you wear,
When we’re hanging out together.
It’s the heart of joy,
That keeps pounding harder.

It’s the love you have,
To continue your life,
Even when you don’t have the courage.

It’s being my little brother,
Fighting a unforgettable battle.
And the courage it takes to be you,
That’s what makes you my hero.

Continue your fight little brother,
For I will always love you.

Whatever It Is...

I kind of wrote this for Cassi, a girl I am currently with; but I wanted to share it with others as well because technically it will be a new poem to add to my collection. Feedback is greatly appreciated.

-My Angel, My World-

I see you every where,

Even when my eyes are closed;

You're on my mind,

Every waking hour of the day.

When we're together,

It's like everything else disappears;

Nothing else seems to matter,

Whenever you're near.

And when you're sleeping,

While I'm wide awake,

I lay silently in the dark

All the while watching you dream.

You've become my everything,

You've become my world;

Without you beside me,

I don't know how much I could endure.

I love you now and forever,

As long as you'll be my girl;

I'll always be here for you,

As long as you need me here.

Don't Cry...

The following poem was inspired by the picture above of my niece Emily crying. "Aww" was literally my reaction when I saw the photo and I knew I had to write something down right away. My heart melts when I see my neices crying so this is what I felt when I looked at the picture.

Don't Cry

by Carol Spurlock

Little girl,
Please don't cry.
Everything
Will be alright.

Just lay your head
Down by my side.
I'll wipe away
All the tears tonight.

March 27, 2009

My Heart

What are these feelings that I'm feeling
I've never felt them before
What are these feelings that I'm feeling
They're new to my world

Why am I feeling these feelings
I'm not so sure
Why am I feeling these feelings
My heart is so scared

How can I expres these feelings
To the one my heart longs for
How can I express these feelings
Without becoming heart broken and sore

What are these feelings I'm feeling
Help me understand
Because I'm quite sure
If my heart is able to withstand

Tic-Tac-Toe, X's and O's

Tic-Tac-Toe
X's and O's
I love you lots
I'm sure you know

Peanut Butter and Jelly
Cookies and Milk
That's how well
We go together

You're the other half
Of my heart and life
Without you
I'd wouldn't be able to strive

I Miss You

I didn't know
How much my heart could miss you
Until the other day

When I saw a guy
Run through the education building
Late for his day
He resembled and sounded like you
And full of the same energy too

I wish you were here
Just so I could have
A friend like you to talk to

Letter to My Nieces

Although you won't
Be able to read this
For a good few years
Here's my heart for you

Something about
Each of you
Sets my life in color
And allows me to live too

From the day
I saw your face
You captured
My life in its place

The feelings and emotions
Niether can be described
You became my world
The day you came alive

I love each
And every one of you
In you own special way
You're all the reason
I love being an aunt

Love Always
Aunt Carol

Fire of the Heart

I don't know
What to say;
I've laid awke
Night after day.
And it seems
I'm not going anywhere...
I'm lost in this place,
Lost here.

Can you stop
This feeling I'm fighting?
Put out
The fire that's burning?
Can you repair
The heart that's breaking?
Because I need
A little time healing.

I'm in love with you,
In love with you!

I've cried
Myself to sleep,
Over feelings
I couldn't keep;
And I'm getting
Over it,
Everything
It couldn't be.

Please tell me
Why I feel;
What's my heart
Got to do but heal?
These lips of ours,
A kiss will never seal.
So go away,
I'm learning to deal

I'm in love with you,
In love with you!

But I hate you
For leaving!
Images of you
I keep seeing!
At times, I don't
Know how I'm still breathing!

I'm breaking for you;
But I'm in love with you,
In love with you!

Letter to a Marine

Some may say
A crush will pass
Or love at first sight
Does not exist

But I'd like to protest
Otherwise
For my heart has fallen
For a marine

And I realize
My love runs
Deep within me

In the spring
Of 2008
I met a guy
I'd never seen

Until that time
I didn't think
That falling in love
Would happen for me

But my heart has
Moved another way
In love it fell
With someone I can't see

Far away he went from me
To serve our country as a marine
Nowhere to write or send this
But I'll write it and hope he sees it

So I write
On paper in ink
All the words you read
Making you think

I'm in love with a marine
And my heart is breaking at the seams

The Perfect Song

The perfect song on the radio
Takes me back to you
And I begin to wonder
Why I tried to make it come true

My heart still races
Every time I see your name
But I know it was all a crush
Maybe even a dream

This fantasy world
No longer lives
But God grants me
With every day he gives

Through time I'll make it
To where I'm supposed to be
And the other end
Will be haze free so I can see

This is the end
Of a fantasy
So I'm now ready
To get back to reality

One Track Mind: Goodbye

Lately my mind's been on you
A one-track disc playing in my mind
Everything else blurs out
As the soundtrack leaves it all behind

My heart steadily breaks
As I think of time spent with you
Those times went too fast
And left me in dust feeling blue

But I realize its time
To give up on what could have been
Had I only had the guts to say
What should have been said before summer began

So although we may talk
Continue to be friends
This is a goodbye
To what might have been

My Brother, My Hero

Every since you were young
We never thought you'd go far
But you've proved us wrong
And had 17 years to live for

If ever there was a superhero
To win my love for them
It would be you
At heart you're stronger than him

Little brother you are my hero
You always will be
Because you impact my life
As your love grows with me

So although it may be hard
Continue to stay strong
It's gotten you this far
Maybe it will see you to the stars

I love you and you know that
My brother, my hero
James William

Man in the Moon part 3

Man in the moon
You disappoint me
For you weren't out tonight
When I was searching for a friend
It was raining today
Made me think of angels
Crying tears upon us

I know it can't be true
But for now
It all makes perfect sense
I wonder how many others
See the world the same as me

Anyways
You seem to be hiding
So I'll let you go
But before I do
Will you tell my loved ones above
That I said hello

Man in the Moon part 2

Man in the moon
Its that time again
Where I'm seeking you
Calling upon a friend

It looks as if
You're finally happy
And so am I
For I'm starting to get by

Its starting to get easier
My mind is getting clearer
The weight on my shoulders
Is getting lighter

I can finally sleep again
But he will always
Remain alive within
No matter where I am

Thanks for the chat
Have a great night.

Man in the Moon

Dear man in the moon
There's a lot of things
I'd like to say to you

I know you're bothered
Almost everyday
But there's only one thing
I'd like to say

If he's sitting
Next to you
Let him know
I'm thinking of him too

That's all for tonight
Goodbye and sleep tight.

Confused Mind

I want to ask
What's running through your head
The feelings you have of me
But my voice lingers
Me away

My heart tells me
To stay
That unspoken words
Aren't as bad
As the spoken ones
That make you mad

So I think I'll stay quite
The way you like it
Keep the questions to myself
And read a book on my shelf

And maybe with time
The differences we'll overcome
And the friendship between us
It will go on

Different View of Heaven

My heaven is
A fun-filled place
For those things created on Earth
Have different meanings up above

The rain drops are tears
Of an angel's cry
As they grieve
For a love one who died

And the thunder is bowling
For God's delight
And the pins he's striking
Gives the lighting's light

The good humans
They're angels
Helping others who remain
And showing evil a better place

My Prayer

I hear angles crying
Day in and day out
I can only think of you
For you are my only doubt

A man who died
On a cross
To forgive our sins
And save all of us

You are the only thing
That I need in my life
Because with you
I can win any fight

There is no other
Who has as much strength as you
Or any kind of love
That can hold true

And if we screw up
You always forgive
So that we may grow
And continue to live

So hear my prayer
To you my lord
For I am struggling
And need you more

Our Love Story

Rain pouring down outside
Hear the pitter-patter on the tin
As we lay quietly
On the floor within

Your beautiful body
Pressed up against mine
Our eyes meet
As our night begins

We have nowhere to go
Except fo maybe leaving the floor
Those satin sheets on the bed
Waiting for us to hit the door

We can make love til midnight
There's no hurry
As long as you're the one I'm with
Let the night carry on

But later on
Don't leave me alone
Hold me in your arms
Keep me safe and warm

But we don't have to go this route
Instead we can stay on the couch
Cuddle together by a fire
And talk until we're tired

No matter what we do
I'll be happy
As long as I'm with you

P.S. I Love You

You lay your head on my pillow
And you drift off to sleep
While I sit there
And watch you dream

You’re more than words
Could ever describe
But P.S.I think I love you

We drive down the road
With the radio on
Look each other in the eye
Then claim our song

I kiss you and
You kiss me too
By the way
P.S. I love you

Pull each other tight
Make love until midnight
I fell in love with your eyes of blue
P.S. I still love you

A Radio's Song

The words play
Through the speakers on the radio
As I think back
To the friendship between me and you

I've given my all
And so have you
Know you can call
Whenever you want to

I'll put in every effort
To be the one always there
As long as you promise
To be around when I need you here

I love you like a sister
And care for you just the same
I don't expect anything in return
Just for you to remember my name

No matter where I turn
I'll keep a piece of you within
Three feet away or miles apart
In my heart you'll remain

And in a year
When I leave this town
I'll be there at heart
So don't turn around

I will be the friend
You can count on
To be there til the end
From now until forever

Don't give up on me
And I won't give up on you
I'm a phone call away
Whenever you need me too

My Song

Baby girl formed
In a mother’s womb
A heart beat is formed
And a child is born
November 23, 1986

Twins with hair of curls
Born to parents
Who brought them into this world
The gift of life running through
The eyes so blue

Never knowing what’s to come
Keep them safe with you
A father protective
Of his little girl
Afraid to let go

20 years late
A mother so stubborn
She doesn’t see
What all she is missing
Because she left thee

The years are running thin
And these little lives made
Are growing forward
To have their own life made

Can’t turn back
The hands of time
It’s time for a father
To let go of the hand of mine

We’ll both have
Our time of cries
But just know in heart
My leaving is not goodbyes

Lost Friendships

City lights drowning in the background
As I watch them slowly fade away
Goodbyes are never easy
Especially if we all go a separate way

New beginnings in the sunlight
But I do not know where to begin
As I watch friendships made
Quickly come to a halting end

I do not know where we will be
Five years from today
But maybe our hearts will remember this day

And even though we
May be miles apart
Do not ever forget
Memories of you will always be in my heart

So may you remain
A forever friend
To me by nameUntil the end

Smoker's Scent: Poem for Papa

As I go to change my shirt
I catch a wift of cigerette smoke
Tears begin to fill my eye
As thoughts of you pass by

The simple smell you'd create
By the burning of your cigars
Begins to linger in recall
As I remember the rides in your car

The paper I write on
Becomes soaked with tears
But I tell myself it's okay
Because I'm not crying due to fears

For if memories of you were never near
It would only mean
That a piece of you is not here

Because although you are gone
In my heart, your spirit lives on
And without the memories in my mind
I would cry sadness every night

May the smoke that I meet
Keep you alive within me

My Apology

Silently whisper my name
With tears rolling down your face
You've been hurt again
But this time it wasn't by men
Instead it was by a friend

You're not wanting to give up
But inside you can't take it anymore
A change is on your mind
If a change isn't seen in mine

I want to be able to say
The words not so far away
But my voice won't let me speak
And my mind won't let me think

I sit with pencil and paper
Doing the best thing
The only thing I can do
To get through to you

It may not be written in stone
But it is at least able to be read
I'm screaming for one more chance
And shouting out my apology

And although it's not much
And I've done it times before
I hope this reaches out to you
And you'll take my word for what it's worth

Sea of Life

You walk down a street
Alone and scared
Breathing the in the air
Things seem dark and gray
If only it were out of the way
You breath in and out
The meaning of life
And somehow it only
Drips slowly away
As you pray
You realize
It's life you breath
The winds that blow
The oceans you see
The clouds that rumble above
And the ground below your feet
Now you know
The place you are in
That safe haven God has given
For around you lives
The sea of life

Operation Iraqi Freedom

At exactly nine o' clock
Our time
A siren in Iraq
Began it all
A war
To be fought by our
Soldiers and more

While they are risking their lives
Other Americans will be praying
For their loved ones to come home alive
For Saddam to be caught
And Iraq to have freedom
Then the war will be faught
And the soldiers' jobs will be done

But until then
We are saying
'God bless America' and 'Amen'

Silence of War

The struggle of the soldiers
The wounds created by war
Leave loved ones hoping
that the end of combat war is not far

Those in uniform
Serving for their country
Missing out on life
Back at home

Yet each and every soul
Will sit and pray
that the silence of war
Will come their way

Fragile Heart

Slowly falls to the ground,
As everything I've done
Comes crumbling down.

Watch you fade
Down that road,
As you walk away.

You've stolen a piece of my heart
Took all the soul's trust
And shot it like a dart.

Because of you
I can't let others in;
Can't be fully true.

And it'll take a lot
To get back what you've taken;
To gain back what was lost.

To regain control of the hurt,
I let all these words
Hide in the dirt.

I'm done with all of it;
Now it's time to forget.

Broken

I've tried to fix this unmended heart
Time and time again
But somehow all the pain and past
Keeps on seeping in

I've tried to turn away from hurt
Day after day
But no matter where I go
It seems to be here to stay

I've tried to put back the pieces
Year after year
But I've worked so hard
Just to always never come near

This is how my broken heart mends
Although I'm sure you don't care
At times this pain is intense
Too deep for me too share

Mistake

Tear drops on my pillow
Another dripping down my face
I'm sitting her crying
As you walk out this place

I tried to speak the words
Needed to make you stay
But my tongue got tied in a knot
And you kept walking away

Now you're gone
And I have nothing left to say
Except for I made a mistake
Will you give me another day?

Giving My Heart To You

When I look you in the eyes
For once I see no bad
You take away the pain
All the fears I've ever had

When I feel your touch
It makes me need you so much
Every little thing you do
Makes me smile too

Because my heart beats
For you and only you
And when I'm away
It breaks for you too

If I could find the words
To say what I need to say
I'd be there in a heartbeat
To confess my every day

Technical Overload

Pick up the phone, eight in the morning
Another missed call, three new text messages
And one important voicemail that greets my day

Open up this computer, log on to the internet
Facebook reads 2 new notifications
Myspace has a new friend request approved

These are the technological feeds
Those of which our world seems to be
Slowly attaching to the strings

Television shows another bombing day in Iraq
And IPods play a little too loudly than on the rack
Video games introduce us to our own guitar hero

But these are the things
We can't seem to live without
Living day to day

All the simplicity of our childhood
Thrown away by technological goods
That one day will rule our world

These are the days
In the lives of
Our own generation

Pushing It All Back

Lying in bed awake,
playing a one track song
Trying to find sleep but it just won't come.
I've got lessons learned and words you've said
Racing through my mind
I've tried to get back to where I belong
But that's just not happening tonight

Because I've kept a few memories of you
And threw the rest away
In hopes of one day
Starting over again
But it seems you're here to stay

I've tried pushing back
All my feelings for you
But its not helping much
Because I just can't bury
This love that I feel

Guardian Angel

As I lay my head
Upon this pillow on my bed
I'm afraid to fall asleep
In fear I'll dream of you tonight.

I feel most secure
Knowing your arms are
Keeping me safe through the night.

So hold me close
And watch over me
Guardian Angel of mine.

The brightest star
Shines in the sky tonight
As I lay awake
Wondering where my guardian angel is.

My tears are slowly flowingbut...
You are not here to dry them.

I miss you
My Guardian Angel
whom I know
Is watching upon me tonight.

Memories of You

It's that old army tank,
Sitting outside the Corrigan VFW.

It's that folded American flag,
Perched on the fire place mantle.

It's all the old pictures of you,
I find lying around.

It's the memories my heart keeps,
Even more each day.

The reasons for not letting go?
Maybe it's you.

Cupid

See the hearts
Flying around the room.
Someone's been struck
From the arrow by you.

Feel the love
That fills the air.
It's the day
You bring love together.

Cupid
You've shot your arrow
Through the heart
Of two loves falling tomorrow.

But it seems
Those arrows struck
The wrong heart
For mine still sits lonely.

My Heart

Carefully beating,
Out the rhythm of your name.
As my head spins around
With thoughts of you it’s trying to tame.

This feeling within me,
Keeps ripping at my insides.
The wall of my chest,
Slowly longing for the right soul to be paired with.

All along in my mind,
I’m trying to find the words.
For I’m afraid to admit,
It’s you I’ve got a liking for.

It’s the person you are,
In the photographs I’ve seen.
The smile you wear,
That seems to gleam.

This feeling I’ll be trying to drown,
I’m afraid to move this way;
Slowly my hands will let go,
Of what is so far away.

My Heart

Carefully beating,

Out the rhythm of your name.

As my head spins around

With thoughts of you it’s trying to tame.



This feeling within me,

Keeps ripping at my insides.

The wall of my chest,

Slowly longing for the right soul to be paired with.



All along in my mind,

I’m trying to find the words.

For I’m afraid to admit,

It’s you I’ve got a liking for.



It’s the person you are,

In the photographs I’ve seen.

The smile you wear,

That seems to gleam.



This feeling I’ll be trying to drown,

I’m afraid to move this way;

Slowly my hands will let go,

Of what is so far away.

Last Goodbye

As you lay in that bed,
Trying to find your last words,
I’m breaking down inside

Not wanting to hear a last goodbye.
But it’s not what was heard,
It’s how it all ended;
I’m not fighting the timing,
Just wishing I could say a last goodbye.

Something’s missing to this day,
Knowing he’ll never hear,
What I wish I could’ve said;
A completed final goodbye